Give me one reason – Tracy Chapman

June 8, 2011 § 2 Comments

A pitcher of beer, cigs and a wandering mind

September 21, 2016 § Leave a comment

My heart sinks in a jug of beer,

My nights getting darker, 

Why there’s no more tears,

Pathetic love song in the air, 

Full of illusions, 

Empty hopes.

The froth in the glass is like my life,

Slowly fade and disappear, 

Melt together with bitterness,

My mind is wandering and asking questions,

Why am I not like those people in your eyes?

Why can they be so flawless?

Why mistakes are the only thing I can make? 

What do I have to do, so you will stand on my side? 

Why does it hurt so much?

I try to find the anwsers in every puff,

in the crackling sound of my clove cigarettes, 

I found nothing, but, I will never win,

if the battles involving other persons.

I down it….bitter……


September 20, 2016 § Leave a comment

When enough is

enough to kill every feelings inside,

enough to make me think back about everything,

enough to give me strength to walk away,

enough to not to care anymore,

enough to not to love, 

enough to blow the last kiss,

enough to make me say the last word,


What it feels like

September 20, 2016 § Leave a comment

It starts creeping up, 

Find its way to get inside my head, 

Like little maggots having a feast, 

It starts strangling me, 

Losing my ability to breathe,

As if I was hung alive,

It starts filling up my heart,

With the feeling of frustration,

For there is no move I am allowed to make,

I am afraid not of them,

Me is my biggest fear, 

If I lost it, I will send you a letter from afar. 

The horse within me

September 20, 2016 § Leave a comment

The horse within me,

Wants to gallop and roar, 

On the wild savannah with the wind, 

Sleeps under the stars and sings to the moon.

Dancing with tall grass, 

Cares not what tomorrow has.

The horse within me,

wants to rest its head on a stone,

Feels it breathing and beating, 

Listens to its soft voice,

Saying “Worry not, for tomorrow never  comes.”

The life of a half faced woman

September 19, 2016 § Leave a comment

She hides half of her face,

just like a half moon on a dark sky.

She is not shy,

it’s the trace of tears,

it’s the scars,

it’s the wound.

She puts a pound of make up,

a thick concealer to conceal the pain,

bright red lipstick to cover her not so lustrous lips,

black eye shadow to hide her exhausted eyes.

She howls like a she-wolf,

walks alone in the woods, and through the mist,

where is her alpha male?

she cares no more.

There are times when she just want to give up,

giving up trying,

giving up crying,

giving up living……………………………





August 25, 2016 § Leave a comment

The sky is dark, and it’s drizzling,

I hear thunder, I see lightning,

I knew it’s coming, 

But have you ever listened to the omens? 

As the wind blows,

And nights whisper,
The soil is hardened,

It starts to crack, 

There’s a wide gap, ready to throw me back,

But have you ever seen the signs?

Have you ever…….?

Early evening

August 11, 2016 § Leave a comment

One early evening,

The richness of Guinness filled the poverty of my mind,

The judging stare from the chics who acted like a bunch of princesses, 

They judged me, my clove cigarettes and beer,

They whispered, looked at me and laughed,

 “Look there’s a hoe sitting across us.” Another giggle I heard, 

The white man came and pulled the chair in front of me,

He asked about my day,

I wanted not to answer, 

I threw a quick look around, one of the princesses was busy painting her face,

I tempted to lend her the crayons in my bag,

The other one stuck her tongue out and took a selfie,

I started to observe, 

Bottles of mineral water on their table,

One early evening,

I wished the richness of Guinness would fill their poor judgemental mind, and lighten up their hearts,

For me to be able to sit quitely in my own world, without any judgemental look thrown aimed at me.